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Dec. 4th, 2009

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Nov. 27th, 2009

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SCRUMP CRAZ.

this-is-one-of-the-cutest-thing-i-have-ever-seen-in-my-life-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.

Nov. 23rd, 2009

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(no subject)

trust is wasted away, nothing shall be the same.

can't think of it. it can't be true.
you made me do this, with those lies.
Everything will crumble into dust.
How you hurt me with your words,
Putting me in a position that i cannot comprehend.
We used to be friends,
I've tried to understand why,
but still it suffers.


For all these months,
I’ve been living your lie.
I gave you my time,
I trusted you.
And you threw it all away.

I believed your good intentions,
But you were a fraud. And I? A fool.
its your decision, this is what you did to me.
theres no point denying the truth.




; when the truth comes knocking on your door, you realise.

Nov. 19th, 2009

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haircut tomorrow! ✂

it's the fear of abandonment.



i swear that daily horoscope thing is damn zhun, REALLY!
i know horoscopes are fake, but why is it being so real!! D:
it's kinda freaking me out.

something funny just happened, HAHA.

dad: the table so messy i want to faint already.
me: (looks at table) hmmm, yah i also want to faint already leh.
dad: what kind of answer is that ! (laughs).
me: laughs along, don't understand what happened. but still, very funny!

buddy's damn cute! :D
you know she very funny leh! me and my dad went out at around 12, we returned at about 5.
guess where we found buddy?
SHE WAS STUCK BEHIND THE VACUM CLEANER!
she could've escaped but she didn't dare to move.
i wonder how long have she been stuck in that harmless 'trap', HAHA :)
poor girl!


YAY! gonna have a haircut tomorrow together with ling & wx (:
hope it isn't gonna be another screwed haircut! xD
gonna get a digital piano soon too:)




GOODBYE:)









; never over-analyse a problem. just leave the pieces on the floor and move on.

Nov. 15th, 2009

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(no subject)

please look at my reluctant smile + notice the hair that shermaine tied!

yesterday was HAHA SO FUN! :D
we = shermaine, lisa, peifang, liling and me!
so, we went to plaza sing to get senior's presents:)
when we went on the train, lisa started playing and plating my hair,
then slowly, shermaine got influenced! :O
then they both started ganging to plate!
HAHA, quite painful cause they 'unskilled' + train moving lah xD
then after that we went to eat mos burger! xD
i couldn't enjoy my burger cause too spicy :x
AND I LOST MY BLACK COMB THERE! D:
but nvm haha, oh yah! on the way back we went to visit the working cui dan there!
so fun!
on our way back i got a free balloon.
HAHAHA i used it to bully shermaine and lisa when they try to touch me. (hair)
such pervs D:
on the way to liling's house in the train, lisa and shermaine were playing my hair when suddenly,
shermaine came up with that funny hair (shown above)
WEIRDOS :D
then pf had to leave so 3 of us + liling went lilings house do presents then play wii! :D
then after that we went to park!
and played swing, climb, blabla then in the end we started singing! xD
you belong with me LOL!
then liling had to go so we stayed for a little while before leaving.
we bought food and drinks at old chang kee and sat the the play ground at kembangan before leaving.
THE END! :)
thats what i do when i get bored.
quite creative right! :D
LOL, HA HA HA.





goodbye!:)











; call the wind the theif for stealing their prayers.

Nov. 13th, 2009

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someone wake me up


Why is it That, You live as if you were Asleep?
Gone in a Dream, That goes beyond Deep?
Are you so far from Home, That the voices of reason have Faded?
That the light that in your Heart, Is now just simply Dated?
Are you so afraid to Awake, From a dream that's belated?
To open you’re Eyes, To start something New?
Will you cower in Fear, And let what’s done be Done?
Or will you find Yourself, And Overcome?

Cause in the midst of this World, Of Heaven and Hell.
Where the truth Lies,
Only
we can Tell.


another unexciting day of dragging myself to school,
i need a 'sleep forever until happy' sleep.
tonight maybe, or tomorrow night!
i have bizarre glitches these days.
I DON'T KNOW WHY!
like suddenly i'll think of something, then i start behaving like that 'something' really happened.
then a few minutes later,
I'M OKAY! :D

i have explanations, that i'm afraid of telling.
i don't want to defend myself, i don't want anything.
i just want this night mare to end.
living in self denial is so tiring.
last night i wrote to understand.
i always imagine myself being in others shoes,
i like underestanding how they feel.
about what they say or do.
but last night i realised.
putting yourself in other's shoes isn't always a good thing.
because, not all people in other shoes may agree or think the way you do.
last night i had a million and one reasons to list about how dissapointed i was about my mothers reaction + answer.
i wrote my feelings and thoughts, and i even wrote about me in her place.
of things i wouldn't do, and things i would.
so, thats how i realised.
thinking for others isn't just about putting yourself in their shoes,
its their character and their impression towards you too.

theses days.
everything seem so deja vu,
like i've been there before, heard it all before.
for every second and every word.
i don't know where this would go and i'm not even sure what to say.
I just need to close the book,
And forget about the mystery.


because i ended up here, theres nothing to tell or say.











; trust opens the heart to love.

Nov. 11th, 2009

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realisation.


You’ve just spent too much time running away to realise what you may be running to.



forget about the people in the past, theres a reason why they didn't make it to your future.


that, i will remember & never forget. i promise.
sometimes you realise the reason why you're being a paranoid is just because theres someone there to get you.
and when lifes about to change, it may be beautiful, it may be painful.
but most of the time it's both.
the greater the trust, the greater the betrayal. (more pain, no gain!)
todays are like tomorrows that we worried about yesterday, it all seems so unbelievable.
sometimes when you're all cloud 9, you forget about falling.
you have to remember that something can always go wrong.
but most of the time, its always too late for realising.

today was 'cramp real badly' day.
but still i went for training! :D see how hardworking i am ha ha.
although i almost died, i survived!
pain is part of life, you know! but you can't let it blind you :)
after that train-ed home with jasline and sat on the playground to eat and talk.
i climbed wall! :D
haha, then while waiting for bus someone called my name.
then i realised it was a prank because i was wearing my pingpong tee!
(name written behind)
haa.. what a crampy day..
watching singapore idol, very bored.
kay, bye!:)









; we all have our own ways of moving on, whether its about growing up, or just surviving.

Nov. 9th, 2009

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today i found out that lies make truths extra painful.



1. one of those days again.

2. but you know, except that todays exceptional. today's like, one of those worst days that marks your life again, it also means finding out truths.

3. truths that hurt and spoil your mood. but slowly makes you stronger.

4. so, today i looked into the dictionary and found your name. i'm just being nice not to spell it out here :)

5. but really. i trusted, believed, and treasured you.

6. but what did i get?

7. oh well thats what i get. i got everything you never wanted me to know. right?

8. but now i do.

9. because your names says it all. spells it all. whatever, but do get the fact that now, i know how much you hate me. but i just want you to know that i don't hate you. at all.

10. no doubt all those mean posts were about me.

11. ps, if you're anywhere guilty and curious of how i actually found out the truth,

12. SOMEONE TOLD ME!

13. you go around telling so many stories, i wouldn't have cared so much. but why not tell the full story? and not parts that only make me seem like a bad bad guy! why not FULL STORY?!

14. its obvious, i'm just a bad guy in your eyes. but seriously, i'm not the kind of person you think i am.

15. i don't care or want to know any intentions of yours anymore. cause i know they won't be good!

16. you can try getting the whole world to hate me but i know i still have true friends out there, that cares.

17. seriously you've been the explanation to the number of times i've cried for you.

18. cause really, i thought you were my friend..

19. 我放弃了。


















; 20. i will never repreat the same mistakes again.

Nov. 8th, 2009

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fear.

there no point in having any fear because you could be here today.
But gone forever, tomorrow.



JOKE OF THE DAY! (morning)

me : daddy, why i smell christmas tree? (walks into kitchen)
dad: ha? christmas tree? (mixing vege)
me: ya the smell really like christmas tree.
dad: NO LA, its the lettuce!
me: christmas tree and lettuce same family tree ah?

nono, cannot be.

i'm gonna be stronger ha ha, from house chores i guess. :/
urgh i'm rotting!
anyone want go out with me? xD














; lets watch the night turn light blue (:

Nov. 7th, 2009

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thats a lie.

ife comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someones hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, smile until your face hurts, don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love... & most of all live in the moment cause when you look back someday knowing you have no regrets its going to be what makes you smile. :)

Nov. 6th, 2009

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FAT.

OHHHH OHHHH..      (sad face!)

breakfast =something fried.
lunch =something fried.
dinner =something fried.

esabella =something fat?

HA HA HI (:
traning today was helluva fun-ny :D

dorcas = ball smacker, or. bowler ball smacker lol xD (you know why? cause she play that time keep smacking balls at me accidentaly!)

esabella = ball collecter, or saliva spitter ha ha xD ( er, cause i keep collecting balls and cause i laugh too much?)

today something very AUTO happenend too, HA HA !
claps? (no.)
went ikea, courts and giant shop today.
AH, so embarassing, dun dare say,
HAHA bye bye. :D





















; the one thing you wish i'd forget -- its goodbye.

Nov. 2nd, 2009

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(no subject)



AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAH! D: WHATS THIS?
2F's 7sub motive-ational talk! :D

took this picture to motivate myself so next year when i go sec 3 i can look back and see how painful it was to go 7 sub ._.
so i'll work harder and become smart! xD


(18th of october 2009)

my hair was messy from all the goggle tries xD
but still jasline took a picture!
as promised but, sorry late ha ha x)
oh and i got a new swimming costume!

TO COMMEMORATE MY FIRST TIME SWIMMING IN 10 months! (on 18/10/2009)
longest time alive without swimming xD
now we're going swimming every week! :D



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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY (: (late post)


HAPPY (belated)BIRTHDAY MUMMY! (:
although, 你老了, 哈哈哈!
可是你不用担心,因为我会永远爱你很多很多的!
okay (chinese so you can understand better) xD
if you see this (i know you will) mummy, i want to thank you for that smile that made me feel my hardwork had paid off (:
and for letting me have my room back, and for buying chewy doughnuts for me!
and for loving me and scolding me too! :D
thank you for giving me a chance to live on earth, and not mars-.-
cause its too hot there, i don't like.
so thank you and i hope you ontinue eating my cake and eat it for breakfast tomorrow + anytime you want!
you asked for dark chocolate, & there you go. SO ,




HOPE YOU LIKE IT! :D


Nov. 1st, 2009

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(no subject)

'' forbidden to remember, terrified to forget.
it was a hard line to walk.
"


between every beautiful thing, theres some kind of pain.
i don't know. but whenever yout heart speaks, you take good notes.
eveyone gets one of those days when you wonder why no one understands what you're saying.
when the world looks horrible and you feel you can't be good enough for anyone.
i just have to believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you could learn to let go, things go wrong so you could appreciate them when they go right. you believe less and eventually you'd learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes, good things fall apart so better things could fall together.
they say that life's too short to worry about change, and at some point you learn to accept the fact that people you wish would never change do.
There are moments that mark your life, moments that you realise nothing will ever be the same anymore.
i believed everything changed, you're one of my reasons.
i don't know about next year, i'm just afraid things would go wrong again, like this year.
i don't want anymore pointless dramas, both at home and in school.
i want a new, fresh start. i don't want to be the same person anymore.
if i do get a chance, i'll take it.
and if it changes my life, i'll let it.


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END OF SCHOOL, 2009! x)





HI! (:
its the end of school, 2009... HAHAHAHA! :D
this year was fast! xD
not as expected but i'm looking forward to next year!
promise i'll study harder + study smarter!
so i can be clever :)
clever means get good grades, I WANT.
but abit lazy leh ._.
nono cannot lazy lah!
i will be hard working! x)
hah, so many things to worrry about.

yesterday was HALLOWEEN, and its also my mum's birthday :D
i baked a cake for her and its my first cake! (besides cookies)\
it wasn't that pretty, but the taste still okok la xD
i spent a whole day making the cake but when she want eat that time need rush off..
actually was quite sad, but haha nvm cause she say it's nice! :D

this morning was fun! :D
i was teaching my mother to use webcam then the effects damn funny we keep laughing like shit!
haaaaaaaaaaa! holiday homeworkss i don't want. ._.
holiday training i also don't want!

hmmm, cannot complain right! okay so lame haha,
good-bye! :D










; i don't want to hurt you, cause i don't deserve you.

Oct. 27th, 2009

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so lousy!

MY RESULTS ARE SO LOUSY.
i am very sad..
i don't want to go to school.
HOW! :O

Oct. 24th, 2009

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2nd stay over! :D





HELLO! (: missed me?
*yucks.
HA HA HA! :D super high now don’t mind ty!
Slept over at Ling’s house yesterday xD
We were in pjs’ and were about to sleep when we took the pictures!
took 10 but the rest unglam cannot show haha!
Sooo funn ;D HAHAAAAAHAAAAAAA.
not zi lian ok, this is called take for memories, especially if you're staying over at someone's house! :D
don't want to forget the fun filled moments right! ;D
Her laptop the effects damn cool damn nice (:
Aww see I miss her already! :D ( HAHA LOL,later someone jealous :X)
No la jkjk haha! :O
And guess what, Dad’s back tomorrowww yaaaaaayy!
Moving home uhuh uhuh (:















; let the future past, but don't let go.

Oct. 18th, 2009

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do you believe in fate?..



LOOK LOOK! i transformed mr. kissy face! :D now he's miss kissy face! xD
i did this when i was bored but, NOT BAD RIGHT! HAHAHA (:
this shows that even 'miracles' happen when you're bored ._. UHHHHH CANNOT STAND THE BOREDOM-NESS.





i just realised how important fate was. maybe, probably cause..
i was thinking through memories and past experiences,
then suddenly i realised : SO MUCH HAPPENED & I'VE FORGOTTEN SO MUCH and so many things i knew i could learn from.
i remembered pri school, i remembered monkey bars and getting punished by teachers.
i remembered friends too, awwwwwwwww i miss them D:
then i remembered someone that changed my life.
i remember how much you've done for me and all i could do was say sorry, be harsh and then ignore you..
i remembered what you did, i appreciated it. but i couldn't accept you.
because because, i had my reasons.
then i remembered hostel, time spent with dorcas,chelle,bird and rhesa! x3
well not leaving out b18 and a17 as well, awwh i miss those times.
i remembered my first year in anglican high.. my first friend was peifang:)
then,HAAH What the heck i was told i wrote my chinese name wrongly.
for 13 years of my life i've been mis-writting my own name? :O
then i met my wonderful lovely 1J, which was fun filled :D
there i met so many friends, HAHA .. I MISS THEM D':
i remembered class chalet when i cried when liling left, then i remembered emoing, i remembered night cycling and sleeping on the sand.
i rememebered + regretted i couldn't treasure those times with my <3 and soul, haha, but i still treasured it kay.
still i'm feeling really sad cause this year had been a tiring year.
i hope, this year could be the worst year of my life, because i don't want anymore future years like this year anymore!
i tried and continued trying but things i could remember about this year are :
lies,
dramas,
misunderstandings,
and truths.

the saddest part was that the lies were the ones that hurt-ed worst, when i discovered the truth.
everything this year seemed so drama-mama,    
but i know i have to be ready for more.
experiences like no other, this is my first, i hope it's my last.
well apart from that i made some wonderful friends :D but still, the happy i'm feeling isn't the same happy like before.
& here i am, convincing myself that where i am now and the people i made friends with had  everything to do with fate.
cause i know it's unpredictable,
and it's unchangeable.
this also means i can't do anything.
i can't be greedy and hope for every year to be fun filled, i know we all get our blues.
maybe i shall just be happier (eventhough i tried it a million times).
it seems like all my efforts are going down the drain.. like WOOSSSSSHHHH!
that makes me real blue sometimes i get sudden mood swings.


so i shall promise myself! :D
the next time something happens, i'll just tell myself it's fate and i can't do anything about it.
so instead of regretting, i will learn! (:










 
; i do.

Oct. 15th, 2009

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EXAMS ARE OVER! :D

HELLO! :D
EXAMS OVER LE, HAPPY HAPPY! xD
all the papers so hard ._.
!@#$%^&*ASDFGHJKL$,    ..AHH! D:
but nvm, 'close the door' HAHA, chinese wen zhang got say leh! x)
today, i really really learnt a lot , AND I'M SO HAPPY! 
*HOORAY*
i learnt that everything's really really beautiful.
you won't know until you find out! :DD
so. today i found out, something surprised me.
now i know. (:
KAY. so clever. c'mon 10 more days Daddy come back alr! xD (patience = (Y)!)

these few days after the paper,
pee-vang very (how to say) quiet which makes her quite scary..
so MY DEAR SISTER if you see this must cheer up okay! :D
i may not know what made you so quiet but i think it's cause of science and geog right?
DO ALREADY DON'T THINK ABOUT IT! (:
you still got next year, nextnext year, nextnextnext year, until you go to uni! :D
don't let this affect you okay?
not like it's a end of everything paper so no need sad cause its just a paper!
an exam paper is nothing compared to your life and happiness kay!
get over it soon! :)

kay thats all i want to say. so if you see this then see, never see than nvm:)










; you're the victim of the rules you live by. DON'T BE A VICTIM! say, NO RULES! >:D

Oct. 3rd, 2009

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Not my perfect story.

hello! :D haven't been posting for quite a long time ._.
ha ha ha haaaaaa, xD its called  'l-a-z-y'.
but on the plus plus sunny side up side! 
I STUDY! :D
well oh well (: learn to believe your eyes.
i studied, but i spent time with tvs & computers too! xD
i need to pack and leave,
but i don't want to pack!
cause i don't want to leave...
it's good-bye in a day,
i'll be strong and take every obstacle okay!
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. its going to be T O U G H and scaaaaarryy..
but who cares anyway, @ least i've got somewhere to stay (:


1. i don't like school cause i've been quarelling with miss rachel for the past 2 days.
but on the + side (:
i think we learnt more about each other.

2. so many reasons i feel like ponning school. ( dun wan list.) think of it and i'll get real blue.

3. i found out how lame i can actually get suddenly, i'm starting to write random songs.
not random actually... songs, like a dairy? O_o ..maybe i've been feeling too sad.

4. had many weird dreams. i dreamt i had a new house yesterday! :D

5. realise i've been feeling sad 90% of my time in school,
then realise how happy i can actually feel at home! THIS NEVER HAPPENED! 

6. i'm actually worrying my nights away.

7. i'm feeling sad for all the victims of disasters recently :( i want to give them my food.

8. ohmy. mrs koh was glad cause i passed e lit! :D (YAY!)

9. miss buddy tan have been trying to steal food again! D:<

10. i feel the depression in my room though its like my no. 1 best solitary hide out. CAUSE, i'm gonna part with you in a day! ):
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY <3 IS B-R-E-A-K-I-N-G.

11. BUDDY TAN IS SNORING. ha ha dogs are so humane sometimes x)

12. i can't sleep, thats why i'm blogging like. this! ._.

why am i feeling like this?
where is this going..
i thought i knew you for a minute, but i don't anymore.
this thing is breaking,
i don't feel welcome anymore.
it was perfect a second ago, now you're halfway out the door.
it's raining here, there. even when i'm gone.
you're feeling so low, you feel nothing at all.
this is not my perfect story,
this won't lead to happy endings.
cause with you aroud always giving me a cliff hanger ending,
i'd take it all back.
here we go again, historys' repeating.
someonelse is always getting what you wanted,
everything falls imperfect from what you needed.
you never had your say.
so now because it's different from before,
i'm breaking out...........




GOSSH I JUST FOUND OUT SOMETHING THAT GOT ME FREAGIN PISSED CAUSE SOMEONE WENT AROUND SPREADING THE BIG NEWS THAT I STAIN MY SKIRT LIKE 4 TIMES?
AND WHAT. I ONLY STAINED ONCE. THAT WAS MY FIRST AND WHY MAKE SUCH A BIG HOO HAAAAAAA OVER IT.
ITS NORMAL FOR GIRLS, LOSER. get it right before spreading RUMOURS.
get your FACTS RIGHT. i repeat.
GET IT RIGHT. oh cause you're a guy thats why you dunno? THEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND HUMANS BETTER YOU ALIEN.
loser. big loser. stupid loser.
















now i'm feeling upset.
i'm feeling sad.
i tried calling but i guess no one's there for me.
at the moment, when i'm dieing to scream.



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